It all came to a head last week. I was officially so busy with life that I just about crashed. It's not the first time I've let things get so out of hand, so I knew what the problem was: too much and not enough. Too much responsibility and expectation crammed into too little time and energy. I collided once again with the reality that there's only so much of me to go around. It's humbling to admit. Very humbling. And maddening. The superwoman cape goes back into the closet.
The answer is to step back, put all the To Do's on the shelf for a minute, and regroup. Evaluate: what is important enough to stay, and what things (regardless of how wonderful) need to go? Tell the taskmaster inside my brain to go get a coffee, and then lock the door behind her.
Regrouping also means putting some things back IN to the day that have wandered off and gotten lost: time to rest, time to eat well, and time to spend with the family. (Wow, this is embarrassing. ) And I was really in a quandry about how this was going to ever work. But I had to do it. Preferably, before I ended up in the hospital.
My weekend out in Maryland was a great time to draw the line and come home with new priorities and expectations. I have lots of great support from friends who are skilled in these areas of their lives, and I'm hanging on to the wonderful mentorship they offer. And, so far, so good. I'm on my fourth day of the Return to the Alton Brown Food Plan, and I'm feeling ever so much better. I've scheduled an hour a day to spend in true leisure activities (reading a BOOK, working on a knitting-for-fun project), pushing away from the computer more, and trying to get a reasonable amount of sleep at night. These are all pretty radical steps for me. Especially the eating part, which requires spending lots more of the day in thought and preparation than I usually am willing to spend. But I know it's going to be worth it.
How about you? Are you on the Treadmill of Doom? Let me encourage you to step off and take a little break. If you want, we could encourage each other to stay on track. I actually think I'm getting more done and being more effective than I was before. Seriously.
I want to acknowledge the crazy art of Terry Border in the photo above. Please check out his hysterical blog and art here. He's brilliant and twisted. (Pun intended.)